Call me crazy….

by Valli

“Ugh” should be the title of my life. pure unadulterated frustration and impatience. I just want to do something good ya know? I want to do something that makes me happy and work with people that I really want to work with. I feel like I’m not doing enough in my life, I know I’m not doing what I want to be doing. That’s for sure… I want to own my own company. I want to wake up when I feel like it and I want to have fun! I want to take trips and have my own place. I know its not supposed to be easy but does it really have to be this hard? Give me a break. Do you know how great it would be if I could just get $5000 bucks… that would change so many things. I need to do something.

I’m at the point now when I don’t even want to come to work anymore. I used to not mind it but now they’re annoying me so much that I just want to leave. I want a cool job at a record company or at a magazine or a venue. I don’t care, just as long as it has something, anything to do with what I really want to do.

I’m sick of dealing with people that think that just because they’ve been here for eons and eons that they know everything, when it’s completely obvious that they don’t. So gay. I don’t know why I feel like this today. I think I let other people dictate my moods even though they’re not meaning to do that. I’m way too worried about what other people think, especially when its someone who I like and want to like me. I think thats it, ’cause I could give a rats ass what some dip ass thinks of me. Must stop doing that, must stop, must stop. I will stop. I am officially stopping.