Words cannot describe how pissed off I am at my boss right now. Oh my god I hate him. I try to think about the fact that he’ll be gone at the end of this year, but for some reason I have a feeling they’re going to try and keep him around next year. That would totally suck ass, and I would hate it, but they’d probably do it just to ass munchers. ARGHH!!

I wish it was lunch time right now. I have to go home for lunch because I left my wallet there./ Okay, so I have now gone home to get my wallet and have lunch. I left at like 11:30 and it’s now 1:19.. hahahaha… The only crappy thing is that I have to stay around for 45 minutes longer than normal to make up the time, or at least act like I’m going to, but once my boss leaves I’m outta here. Hopefully. Either way, 45 extra minutes isn’t that bad…

Okay so I just got off the phone with Jamie and I think we talked a long little while. I just didn’t have much to do today. Actually that’s not true, there was something that I could have done but I just didn’t have the willpower to do it, it’s going to take me soooooooooo long to finish, I totally don’t want to start it.

I talked to Todd over the weekend. I asked him why he wasn’t interested in me, and he said that he’s not over his ex-girlfriend. I know that that’s true, but I don’t know if that’s a cop out, ’cause maybe he’s just not attracted to me in that way and he just didn’t want to say that. Or if it really is just the fact that he’s not over his ex. Either way its totally crappy.

In many ways this whole thing with him does suck, but for the most part I think I’ve pretty much handled it better than I have with other guys in the past. The reason it all gets so built up (and so will all the possible romantic relationships that I have in the future) is because I want to have a relationship with someone sooo badly. I can’t help that, I can’t change that. Everybody needs love, just like everybody needs food. You can be tough and say that you get enough love from your friends and family, but that isn’t always going to be enough. At least not for me. Its not something I can turn off.

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