Just shoot me now people. Actually, no don’t shoot me, I’m not a psychopath, shoot this damn sales rep at my office. She’s so fucking annoying. I turn into Patrick Bateman (american psycho) and daydream about shooting her in the head whenever she talks to me. I know, I know, its kinda violent, but it makes me feel better. It’s not like I’d ever do anything like that, it’s not that serious. I just think it’s funny to think about whacking her over the head with a two-by-four. She’s such a jackass. I can’t believe someone with as little computer knowledge as her can be selling online adverts, it’s crazy.

Can I go now? God I’m sick of this. I just want out. Now. Badly. Really badly.

In downtown Pittsburg there is this building that has 24,000 square feet available. It’s fabulous! It’s only 30 cents a square foot, which is absolutely, ridiculously good. It is sooo cool. I could totally live there and have the Playground. The only drawback, well the BIGGEST drawback is that it is in fact located in downtown Pittsburg with now foot traffic to speak of. And frankly, I wouldn’t feel all that comfortable sending my 16 y/o down there at night either. So it’s all very bittersweet. 30 cents a friggin square foot. That’s insane!!

God I gotta get a business going, or else I’m going to lose my mind. This is all getting old very quickly.

I feel like I’m stuck in a prison and writing in this journal is my only way of connecting to the outside world. Help! Help! Get me out!

Went to the movies yesterday with my Mom and saw “the rundown” with The Rock and Christopher Walken. It was purdy good. Very funny. The rock is hot. I always knew that but yesterday just enforced it.

I was so pissed watching the NASCAR race yesterday. Damn Michael Waltrip. Junior totally should have won that race, but at least he got points and stuff.

I wanna do something fun. I’m tempted to plan a trip to go see a John Mayer concert somewhere I’ve never been, which would be tons a places! I just wanna get away again. But for longer than I did when I went to Vegas. A week would be beautiful. I really did have fun when I went to Vegas. I love vacations. I love doing nothing. I love just being aimless. When everything you’re doing is special, is just extra. When everything doesn’t feel like work, like a “have to” or something.

ahh… a new business idea is born, and it’s something I can start right now. yay!

I feel like a kid that’s been left in class alone while the teacher goes and gets something from the office. It’s like free time or something. Oh damn, spoke too soon. My ex boss and new boss were both gone, and now my new boss is back. Damnit.

It’s only 2:51 and I’m bored. Ugh. This day cannot go by fast enough.

I’m excited about tomorrow for three reasons. 1.) TGIFFF (Thank God Its Finally Freaking Friday) It’s Friday, the last day of the work week, yessss! 2.) I get to get my hair done after work! woo-hoo! and 3.) My ad goes up on East Bay Business Times website, which I am superexcited about. I hope it brings me something good

I must pledge my guilty pleasure of the month. Thy name is Nickelback. I know, I know, Nickelback? It’s that song “someday” that just gets me. He (lead singer, chad) has this passion in his voice that just hits me. I love it. The whole cd is overall ok/good, and there are a few songs that I really, really like. Sometimes you just need someone like that all yelly, and toughy, and all that. Plus I think he’s kinda sexy. I know he’s not like everybody’s standard of hottie but he works for me haha..

I should come up with a new daydream everyday. Hmm… so for today it will be running a staff meeting with all of my employees. We’d congregate in the “lounge” area where all of the couches & chairs are set up. I’d remind them of the upcoming shows on the schedule, give them their schedules for the following week, congratulate people who have done something exceptionally well. Ahh… This is so me, it’s just sick.

yay! it’s 4:30! Only half an hour to go!

My nose is cold. This place is always freezing. I do prefer it to being hot though. A cold nose is a small price to pay.

So yea. Nothing new to repot since yesterday. I’m super happy that today is Friday and I get to go to sleep tonight and wake up whenever I want tomorrow. I also get to finally pick up my AAF cd!

Next Tuesday the new Fuel cd comes out. I’m soooo excited. I love new music Tuesdays. I’m actually happy about Monday because we get to have Noah’s bagels. I loooooooooooooove Noah’s Bagels! Hmm, I wonder if they have the Banana Nut Bagels again. I love those suckers. I wish we had a Noah’s in Antioch.

Anywhoo, I finally get to leave…. yay!

And so the story goes. I’m so incredibly bored right now. I just want to go home eat something fabulous and go to sleep, which is what I suspect that I will do. I’ve worked out everyday since last Thursday and I’m starting to sloooow down, but even if I go home and eat and sleep, I’m going to get up and excercise at some point. I can’t afford not to. I’m also going to buy a brand new scale, which is something I never thought I’d want to do, but I want to to check my progress and make sure that there actually is some kind of progress going on.

Only two hours to go. God this is annoying. I have this severely annoying task at hand. I’m emptying folders, throwing away everything in them, and only keeping the contracts. Fucking boring as hell. I want to do something fun. Something creative. I don’t want to feel this pang of sadness forever.

I’m sooo tired. I should stop saying that ’cause I don’t want to fall asleep on my way home today. That would be bad, especially since I hafta go over kirker pass. I’m so ready to move out. Unfortunately, I must wait until things are in order. Grr. Damn order. Tomorrow’s payday, which I’m very happy about. Actually, I’m more happy about the fact that tomorrow is in fact Friday, which means I get two days off to just chill out. I love the weekends now more than ever.

Lame people suck. I should totally put that on a t-shirt. It’s sad though because the lame people would read it and not know that they’re the ones I’m talking about. Everybody always thinks the joke is on someone else.

Here I am, bored again. I suppose that there are things that I could be doing, but I just don’t want to do them. Mostly because they are boring.

I got my new 2004 Dale Jr. calendar today. He’s such a cutie. I can’t wait till next year! They’ve got a lot of really good pictures

Hmm.. Can’t seem to think of anything really good to say today. Nothing’s really that new with me. You know how badly I want to start the Playground. Nothing new there. I’ve started exercising. I started last Thursday. 30 minutes with Gilad. And I’m basically 100% on the south beach diet now. I wanna see results damnit. I wanna see results now. I’m so incredibly impatient, but I keep telling mysefl that I’ll get there. Just the fact that I’m doing something about it now makes me feel fifty times better.