There’s something about John Mayer’s song “Tracing” that just speaks to me. I know that sounds really, really cheesy but it’s true. It goes deeper than that. There’s something so relaxed and normal and comforting about it. He’s so good. I want to be that good.

I didn’t realize I hadn’t written in this thing for a few days. I would always go to write something at work and then I’d come up with some other idea/thing I needed to do and I’d go do that and of course forget what I wanted to write about. I totally run myself around in circles at work. I come up with all these thoughts and all these things that I remind myself that I need to do and I wanna do them all at that one moment. Of course that doesn’t work because you can’t do more than one thing at a time. I really need to write all this stuff down and just take things one step at a time. I wanna do the clothing company thing, I wanna do the band promotions thing.

And Jamie if you’re reading this I totally need to write you back! eek! I promise I will either today or tomorrow or monday, I will :) My boss is on vacation all next week so I won’t have her walking by checking to see if I’m having too much fun on AIM, for a while. :)

So Friday was the last day for our real estate sales rep. She quit ’cause she felt like it wasn’t right for her, which is cool, but I liked her in general and it sucks to know that I’ll have to help out some new person learn how we do everything, yadda, yadda, yadda. Anyway, we had lunch together at the picnic tables outside, eating the leftover sandwhich stuff I brought in for the potluck the day before. We talked about what she was going to do, how the company was fucked up in some ways, blah, blah, blah. I told her how I put up that ad on Craigslist and how I got a response from this personal/director’s assistant who needs to find a replacement for herself. Before Friday the last email I got from her told me that their producer had someone in mind for the job but ultimately it was up to the Director, but she was going to keep me posted. So I told Wendy (Real Esate Sales Rep who’s leaving) all this and she thought it sounded cool and I was like yea, and then we started talking about coincidences and the Deepak Chopra book on cd that I’ve been listening to, and how all coincidences mean something. So we finished lunch eventually and went back to “work”, like ten minutes after being back at my desk I get an email from the personal assistant girl saying that the person the producer had in mind couldn’t do the job ’cause they didn’t have a car and could only work part-time, and they need someone who has a car and can work full-time. In a previous email I told her that I would be down in L.A. Valentines weekend through Monday. So she asked if we could meet up on that Monday, the 16th. So it looks like I’m going to be interviewing for the job. :)

I feel all weird about the whole thing. The thing that has me worried, or something, I’m not sure what emotion I’m feeling right now, is that the base pay is half of what I’m making now, which is absolutely insane and I could never live on that, even if I lived with my sister. So they would have to up it. But I’m like I don’t even know if they’ll offer me the job or if I’ll even want it after I meet them. It’s all up in the air and I guess I don’t like that feeling. The feeling of the unknown. I dunnoo, this is all really weird and complex in my head and I don’t know why. When I first got that email from her I was all excited and looking forward to it, now I’m all nervous and eeked out. Eventhough I know it’s no biggy. I mean even if I don’t get it, I still have plans I have tons of stuff that I can do. So it’s just a little interview that’s all, just a meeting with people to talk about a job. I don’t have to agree to anything.

I’ve been talking to Richard, er, Richy :) everyday at work on AIM. It just occured to me that we talk everyday online. Except for weekends, but I did talk to him today. We’ve even talked over the phone a handful of times and it’s been really fun. He’s a good guy and I like who he is in every way. I need to get that book, “The Book of Questions” so I’ll always have a question to ask him. He says I don’t talk enough. Ohhh… I can use that Kokology book on him. Good idea.

I’m exercising tonight after a super long hiatus. I really need to get back into the swing of things. I’ve maintained the weight that I’ve lost so I’m happy about that, but of course I want do more. Especially with the JM show coming up in couple weeks and then the FT show the week after that. I know I’m not going to hit my goal in three weeks but at least I’ll feel more confident because I am losing something. Which reminds me, I need to order that hoodie for the fingertight show… I still don’t know what to get on it. I’ve come to just getting FT Fan Club, but of course the FT will be spelled out. I dunno. I wanna get something cool. So maybe I’ll just get the “sissies are cool” hoodie instead.

Hmm… stuff to think about. :)

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