So after dinner, of which he paid, I offered to go dutch, but he paid anywhoo, we walked back to the parking garage.

He saw my car, saw my Dale Jr. stickers and had to make fun of that and my love of NASCAR. Then we had that awkward moment where you’re like okay, now what? He said something like “I remember the awkward goodbye part”, something like that I’m horrible at remembering exact words. Then he was like… “I’d kiss you but I don’t want to get you sick” He was coming down with something at the time or having throat issues. In my head I was like “who cares, kiss me you fool!” but I didn’t, which I regret. hehe. ‘Cause I don’t care, get me sick, as long as if by kissing me it means that you really do dig me and like me in a potential girlfriend way, not a friend who’s a girl way. But back to the story, so I was just like, “well we can hug” so I hugged him and that was that. When I got into my car I realized that neither of us had said something like “I’ll call you or I’ll email you” so I was like “oh shit, I don’t wanna be left hanging, wondering what’s up”. So when I got home I emailed him to thank him for dinner and to tell him that I had a good time, etc.

So yesterday I’m thinking ok, he’ll either call or write today. I knew that he had band practice but I wasn’t sure when it began and ended. So like all night last night I’m checking my email every hour and my phone, doing the whole make sure it works thing. Yes I’m a totally weird girl, but whatever, I like him and I don’t wanna be just his friend or completely nothing to him. So anyway… I made cookies and listened to my new Kylie Minogue CD, which is excellent by the way, totally believe the hype, she rocks. It was super nice to have the house to myself.

So I went to bed thinking semi-bad thoughts, but I still had hope that he’d write because I know he goes to bed late, so he still had time to write. So I get up this morning and head straight for the computer and he had written me. Nothing romantic but basically to say that he had to deal with a friend of his who was having life issues and he made a doctors appt for his throat probs for today, etc. But the point is, he wrote me back and he didn’t disappear. This, however, by no means means that we’re out of the woods, I’m not going to feel comfortable or safe about the whole deal until we see each other again and we make out. haha. But seriously, I’m not going to believe it until I see it or hear it or feel it.

I get to go hooome! Yay!!

So I met Joshua on Monday and I haven’t written anything about it yet. Sorry to keep all two of you who read this in suspense. Although I think the two that are reading this I’ve already basically told about it, but anyway. I digress.

So of course all day Monday at work I was completely nervous and anxious. Luckily the day moved by fairly quickly. After work I went down to our meeting spot at Starbucks in Walnut Creek. He was outside, sitting at a table like he said he would be. I guess he got there earlier than he expected so he went to Barnes & Noble and bought a guitar magazine. He’s a guitar magazine snob too, he only buys the ones from the UK or something.

So we sat there for a minute before I suggested going inside because it was kinda cold outside, but it was all packed in there, so we went to B&N down the street. Their cafe was packed too so we ended up sitting outside afterall. He didn’t have a jacket but his arms are super hairy so I guess that keeps him warm. The hair on his arms is blonde so it’s not all icky looking. Anyway… He’s got great blue eyes, especially when the sun is out, they’re all sparkly and bright. I think we sat there and talked for like two hours, ’cause it was getting dark. We went to dinner at McCovey’s. The food was soo good. I just had a cheeseburger and fries, but it was insanely good. I’m still thinking about it That place is crazy, there are TV’s everywhere, even in the bathrooms.

Part 2… to be cont’d. Gotta restart my computer.. friggin a!

“I just want this to be good, I just want this to be good”

So this is it… I’m off to the meeting place. Wish me luck!!

So I know that I gave up on dudes this past week and I still have but there may be a little bright spot on the horizon.

The same day that I gave up on guys I got an email from this guy named Joshua. He responded to an ad (yes an ad) that I posted somewhere that shall remain nameless for the time being. At any rate his response was purdy cool. So I wrote him back and we exchanged photos and kept talking via email. Then we talked over the phone on Friday for a few hours. The convo ended it was like, ok,…. should I call him again? Should I wait for him to call me? Ugh, I hate waiting for guys to call. So anyway, he emailed me yesterday and said “thanks for calling me last night” and how his plans for last night fell through, and how he’d call me soon or I could call him anytime at all. So I was like, hmm… what to do, what to do. So of course I called him, but it wasn’t without like an hour or two of “should I or shouldn’t I?” So at 10 I finally call him. He answers and we talk for 8 hours. Literally till the sun comes up.

He’s a science teacher at a junior high school in Oakland. He wants to teach at a high school again, though. He just turned 30 on St. Patrick’s Day. He’s a guitarist in a local band that plays really, heavy music. I haven’t heard any of their stuff but it sounds like it’s really heavy. He’s a total guitar snob. He lives in this huge loft with two roommates in San Leandro. We talked about his teaching, his school, his kids (that he teaches, he has no kids of his own), music, movies, politics, religion, and so on and so forth. Throughout the whole time we talked we never really talked that much about us meeting. Not until the end did we set up a meeting for tomorrow after work. (oh, dejavu just now) So at the end of our conversation he says kind of out of the blue that he really likes talking to me. It was really sweet. I mean I know that that seems like a given after we talked for 8 hours straight, but the way that he said it really sounded so much more sincere.

After our first telephone conversation I wasn’t sure how to proceed. I kept thinking about him and I thought that if I emailed him that that would ok, it’s not the same as a phone call but I didn’t. I was determined to not call him yesterday, but I did keep going to my email trying to fight the urge to write something. But he did. I just thought that was a great thing.

I haven’t been to sleep yet and I doubt that I will be able to until the afternoon or something. I really need to take a shower and get dressed then take a nap because I feel weird not getting dressed. Ugh. I’m hungry too.

This is cool and I’m not that nervous (yet) about meeting him tommorrow. I think it’ll be cool. I think it’ll be fine. If at the very least nothing happens I know I’ll have a friend of some kind. But of course something more would be so much better. My mom is leaving on Tuesday but she’s coming back on Friday instead of Sunday. Ugh. My damn sister was supposed to meet up with my mom in Vegas for the weekend and because she now can’t go for whatever lameo reason my mom is coming back on Friday. Ugh. This would of been the perfect time for her to be gone over a weekend. No matter. I just hope my mom forgets to have her tickets changed and stays in Vegas anyway. Puhleeeeze.