I’ve got a couple more dudes to add to the list of guys that are eligible to marry me… Jake Gyllenhaal. He’s single again! And Josh Hartnett… haha.. I keep seeing those previews for Wicker Park and I’m like “helllooooo!”

So it’s only two weeks till the party. I’m very excited about that. I still have no couch and I probably won’t get it until the end of Sept./beginning of October. Although I’m looking into renting a couch for the month, which would be great, but I gotta check it out. It’s looking like that might be possible. If it isn’t then I’ll just buy a bunch of floor pillows, bring down the folding chairs from my mom’s place. It’ll be cool… Ah! Just talked to Rent a Center and it is possible to rent a couch for a month. Perfecto.

So tomorrow I go to work, but I have Tuesday off, which is my birthday. Which is awesome, I won’t have to endure my birthday at work. I’m hoping that we all don’t go out to lunch. Going to restaurants sucks for me, I can’t justify ordering an entire meal and paying all that money. Especially since I’m only going to eat like bites of it, and taking it home is just pointless ’cause I highly doubt I’ll reheat it, unless it’s chinese food.

On turning 24, I’m not sure what I think of it. It’s alright I suppose, I’ve got 6 more years of my twenties.

It sucks that I can’t have chicken. I love chicken. It’s not until you’re without it do you realize all the things that have chicken in them that you’d like to eat, or that you’d be able to eat once you’re in the next phase. Like I can still go to Mimi’s Cafe and get the chicken tacos, but just not eat the tortilla. Er, at least I’ll be able to eventually. Hopefully when I go back in for another appt with the surgeon on the 17th they’ll tell me I’m free to try stuff…sweet bliss. I hope so at least.

Nothing else left to say. bleh

I’m not crying because of the surgery anymore. ha! now it’s because of work! hahahahaha… god thats so sad and fucked up

So, yesterday I told my boss that I would work on getting builder packages entered into the system. That’s a very high priority because people are getting billed for something that’s not actually live on the site. Submitting and gathering the information for builder packages takes a lot of time. There’s like 20 that I have to do. That’s a LOT of work. (not to mention being incredibly boring and painful). So I said I would work from home today, which of course doesn’t work ’cause all this crap comes up that I can work on from home, so I had to come in. Which is already annoying to me. Then I get here and I check my email and my boss wants me to make spec ads by tomorrow for a client that we have already sold and have sold to in the past. Why the fuck do I have to make spec ads for them? I DON’T HAVE FUCKING TIME.

What the hell does that mean? This is what the CEO of the company I work for just said in our “peer committee” meeting. It’s such BS. I hate corporate crap. That statement means nothing to me. It doesn’t help me do my job better, it doesn’t give me more money, it doesn’t help me reach my goals. Lame. Now I’m on some lame ass committee to determine our company values and crap. Who the hell cares?? They value money. Bottom line. It’s all just a bunch of rhetoric to make it look like we all actually care about what happens to the company. I’m sure there are a lot of people who do care about the company, and want to stay with the company, etc. And those are precisely the people that I can’t relate to because that is so not me.

I love the fact that I’m coming to realize all of these things. I’m glad I’m figuring this all out now instead of at like 50 or something. Hell, even at 30 that’d suck.

Working from home doesn’t work for me in this job. Too much shit comes up that I can’t fix/do from here. So fucking annoying. So now I have to go in, and I was hoping that I wouldn’t have to, but I do and I hate it. Damn work.

And don’t get me started on their idiocy while I was gone. Crap that they could of done for themselves while I was gone, they left for me. Not to mention I’m at work yesterday and this noink from the credit department comes in and tells me that I have to change the way I’ve been doing something for the past year without issue. There’s no way in hell I’m changing it. Ugh!

I wish they would all just leave me alone. Time is of the essence now, in terms of getting out. I feel like I’m drowning there.