now that everyone is dead we can finally talk

by Valli

I accidentally watched the Princess Diana tape thingy that was on Dateline last night.

I hate the fact that even after her death, that was caused by the media, they’re still exploiting her and her life in the media. But in her video tape she said something that kinda rung true to me. She said that when she was young, before she met Prince Charles, that she knew that something profound would happen in her life, that she was meant for something big. She always felt different, like something huge was going to happen. I’ve often felt the same way. Now I’m not saying that I think I’m going to marry a prince or something, but I definitely feel like I’m meant for a WHOLE lot more than crap work at a corporate website.

I think that I’m not going to try to find any guys online anymore. I’m done with the whole thing. It’s frustrating and annoying and I don’t want to deal with it anymore. I feel like I’m powerless in all of it, forever liking someone who’s not interested in me. So in order to stop the cycle I’m just not going to be a part of it anymore.

Still in the job search mode. I told my boss that I was looking for another job, and could understand where I was coming from. He’s allowed me to use him as a reference, which is great. Roxy and Kimmie still annoy the hell out of me. I can’t stand them.

I hope that I find a job that fits what I’m looking for, I really, really hope that I find it. I can’t take more of those “women”. I’d really like to get the Exec. Asst. position I interviewed for last week. It’s a small place just starting out and it’d be great to be there from the beginning basically. It’s in SF, but the parking is free. I’m so impatient. I’m so impatient for stuff like this, when I really want something, it sucks to wait for it to materialize.

I’m officially poor for xmas. I have no idea what I’m getting everybody. Totally sucks big time.

Lets end on a positive note thought… hmmm if I got the job in berkeley then I could go to lunch with Kirk. That’d be coolio.