I feel like shit. I don’t want to feel like this. I hate work. I hate that fact that I have no boyfriend. I feel like I’m going in circles with no end in sight. This can’t be how it is.

I want to change all of this, I just want out.. I want to get away. I want to move on. I want this all to change.

yea, it’s not love, I just wanted to use that as a subject line.

Christmas sucks ass when it comes to shopping. Yesterday I tried to go to Target to get wrapping paper. No parking spaces. People acting psycho. I just went home and said I’d do it tomorrow. I go today and it’s the same thing, I think it might of been worse. So I’m just going to go to the Target in Walnut Creek tomorrow at lunch, er at least that’s the plan in my head right now.

Ya know what show is totally underrated? America’s Funniest Home Videos! It’s friggin hilarious. I laugh everytime I watch it which isn’t something I can say about I dunno, some shows who’s names I can’t think of right now.

The weekend is way too short.

Well… first let’s start with work. We finally had our holiday luncheon last Friday. It went well. The presents were a lot better. In an effort to annoy Roxy-Ho I sent an email on the previous Thursday reminding everyone of the lunch and saying how the MAX that they could spend was $20 and if they didn’t want to spend that much they didn’t have to. Freak. So anyway at the lunch we did the game and I stole the U2 cd that Kim brought from Morgan, and I Kim stole the Starbucks gift box that I brought from Deb. Deb’s still ticked off about that.

I’m still looking for a new job. I was feeling crappy last week and yesterday because I didn’t get any good responses for interviews, but then yesterday I got an email from this guy who’s a VP at a lighting production company. I have an interview with him tomorrow and it looks promising. Then I got a message from a company that I sent my resume to last week (although it feels like I sent it out years ago) for an interview, which I have scheduled for Thursday. I’m not that keen on this one just because it seems like it could be lame. I dunno.

Xmas. Well. Jamie if you’re reading this I’m going to have to give you your gift in Jan/Feb. depending on my money situation at that point. I’m tapped out, and things are tight for me right now. Sucks.

In other news I need to take a new photo, only because the one I have now is starting to annoy me. I still like it but it’s just getting old I guess… Lacey has agreed to take the beer I have off my hands. Which is great.

Hmm… I can’t think of anything else that I need to say right now. I shall mosey on home.

Classic. Rox stops me as I’m walking out to go fed ex some stuff, and asks if we can change the dollar amount that we spend on the ‘dirty santa’ gifts that we’re supposed to exchange next week, originally it was $20, she wants it to be $10 because the holidays are getting so expensive for her. So I’m like yea, sure, whatever. As I’m walking down the hall to go to the morgue I’m thinking to myself, “fucking a, if she wants to do my job so bad she should just take it”… I fedexed the stuff then came back and she reads the email she’s about to send out to everybody because she “doesn’t want to step on my toes”, and I just say “yea thats fine”.. she’s a freak. I dislike her a lot.

Another example of her irkness, she came in one afternoon with her daughter. She puts her daughter to work “organizing” our supply cabinet and the shelf next to it. It doesn’t look any better, but yet she’s all gushing about it, and how she had her daughter do it and etc. Now, we all know that that kind of stuff falls under my realms of duties, but apparently when she made her daughter do that stuff she wasn’t worried about stepping on my toes then. I dislike her A LOT.