That’s my soon-to-be personal website. It will have all-things-valli eventually. I’m still not quite sure of what I’m going to have on there and how it’s going to be laid out. So once I’ve figured it out I will post something about it.

In other news, I’m still at work pretending like I’m doing actual work. I should just go and stop fooling myself and my boss. I’m so close to just putting in my notice now for like a month and just going. I’m tired of being here. Its awkward and the sooner I can get out of here the better.

I’m sure I’ll find a job soon. I’m staying postive on that front, and every other front really. I don’t want to get in the way of myself.

I’m off to go baby shower shopping. The shower is tomorrow and yes I have waited till the last possible minute to buy the gift.

Well.. I went to the dentist (again) today and they made a mold of my teeth in order to make me a nightguard. My dentist also reccomended that I get braces into order to help with my jaw pain issues. I don’t wanna have braces! grrr. It’s not that big a deal I guess, I mean they have those “invisable” ones and what not. But its just this other thing that I need to do and I’m not really looking forward to it.

I have an interview tomorrow and on Friday, so I’m happy about that. They’re both at places that I would be interested in working at for various reasons that I’m not going to get into now. I’d rather not talk about specifics of the jobs until I get one. I’d just like to get one that I can stay in, if I have to, for a long time and be happy with it. This has got to be it. No more job hopping for me.

I can’t stand corporate crap. It’s all crap. It’s all just talk, talk, talk, talk, talk. There’s no action. I’m on this stupid conference call and I have no idea what they’re trying to do. We have a peer committee, which is just a group of employees, like one person from all of the big top 9 sites. So now they’re creating this joint committee, I guess along with the peer group.. and I’m trying to say that I don’t want to be on ANY committee anymore, but they’re trying to sign up people onto the joint committee’s new groups. Its like, why am I going to sign up for this crap if I don’t want to be on any of these damn committee’s. I asked this and then they tried to explain it to me and I don’t get it and I know it’s not because I’m stupid, it’s because they make no sense. Or maybe I wasn’t paying attention when they explained it, but whatever. I’m just not going to attend the meetings anymore. It’s pointless.

On a happier note, I’ve got a ton of sick and vacation hours, so that when I finally quit I’ll be cashing out and it’ll be grrrreat money to have!

I believe that I have TMJ and my jaw is all fucked up. There’s this pain there everyday and I can’t get rid of it it seems. Sometimes it’s less than others, but it’s always there. It has to do with stress, but the fact that I’m in pain makes it harder to relax ’cause I just want it to go away. Anyway, I’ve made another appointment with my dentist for next week, so hopefully that appointment will give me more tools to deal with this crap.

1.) wake up at 7am by my alarm clock, turn it off and go back to bed
2.) wake up somewhere between 7:30 and 8am, lay there for 10 minutes procrastinating
3.) finally get up and get dressed for work, then drive to work all the while repeating to myself in my head “i will find a great job, i will find a great job” and enjoying my music or howard stern
4.) get to work, usually late. I may or may not stop by the cafeteria to get crappy coffee (that even doctoring up with sugar and half&half can’t save)
5.) get to my desk, turn on the computer and wait 10 minutes for it to start up.
6.) check my work email, personal email, myspace mail, and then figure out what work I need to do.
7.) apply to jobs on craigslist, update my craigslist resume ad and then do some actual work, repeat over and over for 9 hours.
8.) once the “work” day is over I go home, eat a lean cusine and watch tv shows.

The Plan

1.) Get a new job
2.) Get FICO scores up
3.) Buy a house (condo most likely)
4.) Use house as collateral for SBA Loan
5.) Open The Playground

Five easy steps right? If only. It’s that damn FICO score thing that annoys me, ’cause who knows how long it’ll be before they’re where they need to be to get a good home loan.

Looking for a job sucks ass. Especially when I’m not applying for anything & everything that applies to me. I don’t want to do the same thing that I’m doing here which is being bored all day. I seriously hope things pick up as soon as possible. I’ve put a lot on finding this new job, so it means a lot to me. Everything is going to turn out ok. I’ll find the job that I really want and I’ll get it. Staying positive.