things have changed

by Valli

That couldn’t be more true.

So many things happened this weekend I’m still coming down from it all, and it’s totally done a number on my emotions. Today I’ve felt like crying at least 5 times, and for a few of those times I actually got to let it all out. Matt left this morning to go back to his parents place and then eventually back to his home in Arcata. I miss him and I didn’t want him to go. I think about the fact that he’s not here and it makes me sad, but at the same time I know that he wants to be with me and that we’re always going to be in contact and that we will see each other again soon. It softens the distance but it doesn’t erase it. I feel like moving to Arcata to be with him but thats basically impossible.

He’s so thoughtful and sweet. My car wouldn’t start yesterday morning before it was time for me to go to work. Matt figured it was my battery and that I needed a new one. So he drove me to work (in his mom’s truck, his truck actually needed work, and was being worked on in red bluff, so thats why he had to take his mom’s truck down to me) and then went to Sears, bought a new battery, plus tools and a tool box. He installed the new battery and now my car is totally ok. He picked me up from work in my car (trinity) and then I drove us back home. He wouldn’t let me pay him back for the battery and the tools. He also took back the tablecloths I rented for the party, and the keys to the center where the party was held. He did all of that for me and he totally didn’t have to, especially since he doesn’t know the area.

This weekend he literally met all of the people in my family, well all the people that matter. Everybody liked him, which is great and I knew that they would. I knew that he would fit in and get along with everyone.

gotta go.. will write more later.