the war that’s raging on inside

by Valli

It’s been so long since I’ve written something I thought it was about time I got back to it.

As Death Cab For Cutie says “so this is the new year and I don’t feel any different.”

That’s pretty much how I feel about 2007 so far. It’s still early of course and anything can happen.

I hope a lot of really great things happen this year, like getting paid to write my motor sports blog or getting more pay in general. 🙂

There’s not much new to report. Last year I moved to Walnut Creek. My apartment is ok, but it’s not where I want to stay. Needless to say when my lease is up in July I’ll be moving elsewhere.

There are soo many things that I want to do this year that I don’t know if I’ll be able to for this reason and that. I’d love to go to Coachella and to all of the NASCAR races in Vegas and Calif. We’ll just have to see how it all shakes out.

I sometimes think that it might be better if I didn’t know myself so well. I mean, I know what’s going to happen in certain situations. Usually the outcome I forsee isn’t a good one, or at least something that’s going to get me closer to what I want. It feels like I’m going around in circles, never getting the one thing I really want/need.

I dunno. This is just me writing. 🙂