“He’s the perfect wrong guy to have a baby with.”

This is a thought that occurs to me about a certain guy that I’ve known for years.

I’m 26, single and dying to have a baby. I’m a rational person, I know that being single and having a baby isn’t a smart thing to do. And being that I grew up never having a father in my life I know that I don’t want that for my kid. I want to be married with the intention that my husband and I will be together for the long haul.

However, when I think about this guy all of my senses go out the window. He’s my adult crush. I had my high school crush, dreamboat guy that I have exhausted all fantasies about, but this guy is someone that will linger in my thoughts until I’m married off to some great guy.

I’ll call him Jake. Jake is an artist; he’s so fucking talented it makes me sick. He’s also incredibly hot. I mean he’s a super cute guy. But because he is an artist he has his tragic side. Of course I want to be the one that “saves” him and makes him want to be the best, stable guy he can be. And I want to be the one that has his love child.

Seriously if I could only have sex with him once I’d be happy and if that sex resulted in a kid I’d be ecstatic. It’s totally insane and I’m probably ok with these thoughts because I know that the chance of all of this happening is pretty slim.

Truer words were never spoken.

So last Thursday I accepted a new job at a fabulous company in San Francisco. This is an awesome opportunity for me! I’m so excited about it it’s ridiculous. But I’m not naive. I’m actually kinda nervous about the whole thing. I know I’m smart and I can learn quickly. I’m just afraid of letting people down and I don’t want to do that. But overall I feel pretty secure in my talents and abilities.

My last day at lame company will be next Thursday. Yay!

I’m looking forward to what the future holds for me. Obviously I would love to get my love life in order. I’m hoping that I can get that whole thing figured out sooner as opposed to later.

Current male obsessions:

– Blake Shelton - I’ve talked about him a little bit before but I must re-state that he is indeed hot. He has the best country accent ever and he’s a great singer too. I love his current song (and video) “don’t make me.” He’s one of the judges on Nashville Star and he’s freaking hilarious. *sigh* And it looks like he’ll be at the Sonoma County Fair in July. That could be a little mini-adventure.

– Anderson Cooper - Is it bad that I only watch CNN for Anderson Cooper 360? He’s such a cutie. An intelligent, sensitive hottie. The suits, the ties, hot!

– George Clooney - The man is gorgeous. And he was once in an episode of The Golden Girls! Hah! I love him because he seems to be compassionate and intelligent. He’s an excellent actor, but really he’s just plain hot!

It’s a little disgusting how many times I’ve used the word “hot” in this post but I currently don’t have the brain power to think of something else.