frustration is the worst cologne

by Valli

Doh! I can’t believe I didn’t think of this sooner. I don’t know if this is actually feasible but what if I quit my job, after paying some major stuff off of course, and then got some easy peasy retail job. Then I could write in my blog whenever and I’d be free of the daily office grind. I could focus even more so on getting my blog out there and trying to work with NASCAR.

I don’t think that’d work really, I can do the same thing now. I am doing the same thing now. I am going to work with NASCAR and I’m going to go to all of the races of the 2008 season. There’s just no way around that. I need to be there and I will be there. I just hate this waiting for word back, I want to know what these people think and I want the chance to really explain it. They need to hear me directly.

I have no idea why I’m still at work. It’s the most pointless thing in the world. I have nothing to do and I sit here trying to act like there’s something. it’s the funniest thing in the world. I don’t like the looks I’ve been getting. I didn’t make this happen, I didn’t create this situation. They created it. If you want me to do something, then give me something to do! UGH!

I can’t even remember why I was hired anymore. I seriously don’t know. Don’t ask me if I want it, just give it to me. Ugh. This is really the last time that I’m going through this. I’m sure I’ll encounter rough waters when I’m out there as a full-time blogger, but at least I’ll be doing my thing and not someone elses. Or faking doing someone’s elses.

The waiting is the hardest part. I know that I have a unique voice and perspective and I know that it’s something that no one else has ever done before. At least not consistently.