I have loved and loved the band Anberlin for many years now. Their music is what I would call alternative/indie rock, but to me it’s some of the most romantic and inspirational stuff I’ve ever heard. And not inspirational in some preachy, gospel way. No, it’s inspirational in a way that just makes you happy, optimistic and hopeful, like as if to say yea, one day I’m going to find a guy who will feel that way about me and yes, I can make all of those dreams I have come true. Plus the music is just catchy, and the lead singer Stephen Christian has such a unique and beautiful voice.

He is also super hot, smart and thoughtful. Every so often I catch up on his blog The Modesty Writers Guild and every time I leave it feeling more clear about the path I should take in my life. I love great quotes and he always has some extremely relevant ones posted, like this gem I read today:

“Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education alone will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan “press on” has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.”

-John Calvin Coolidge

Anberlin’s new CD “New Surrender” is going to be released online in September and I can’t wait to get it! I’m soooo excited. Plus they’re on this year’s Warped Tour, it’s coming to the Shoreline Amphitheater in August, so maybe I can go to that. Hmm.

You must check out the Anberlin MySpace page and in the photo at the top, Stephen is the guy in the middle in the white long sleeved shirt looking gorgeous.

And here’s an Anberlin song for extra proof of their awesomeness:

Click the image for a bigger version (easier to read). Thanks to Kevin for showing me this!

I miss looking at someone and seeing all of the possibilities. I’ve only been in that position once and I wasn’t even in love with them yet. Only once have I had that thought that maybe this person is the one I could build a real life with.

I miss being able to think about those things. As I get older the need to feel those things becomes more urgent. There was a great line in the movie “Then She Found Me.” Helen Hunt’s character says, “I want a baby, I can’t explain it, it’s like being hungry or having to pee.”

And so that’s how it is for me. Having kids isn’t something I can take or leave. It’s something that I have to do. It’s something that I don’t want to wait to do either. I know I’m “only 27” but time can go by so fast and I don’t want 10 years to flip by and be 37 and childless. Obviously I really don’t have all that much control over what happens, only to a certain degree, but I can’t make someone love me, hell, I can’t even make them meet me.

I wonder if I should write and post this kind of stuff here because really anyone can read it. Guys that I could be interested in could read this. And so what if they do? If you can’t handle my honesty then that’s tough for you, plus I’m not going to date just anyone in an attempt to have a kid. I have a plan, and that plan involves falling in love — real love — and getting married and having babies, all in that order.

My awesome sister on a new Lifetime tv show called “The Balancing Act.”