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The more I learn about business and “the real world” the less I want to do with it. At some point I have to pull the trigger on the things that I really, really want. I guess I am right now. I’m doing things but I don’t know that I’m doing enough.

I need to do more with The Fast and the Fabulous and I guess I just don’t know where I should start or where I should put all of my focus and energy.

I think that I need to go to more races because those trips add so much more rich content to my site and I think it makes the most impact. It’s just so much more interesting to be at the races in general anyway. It’s hard to figure out the path you’re supposed to take when no one has done what you’re trying to do before. I’m trying to forge a path where there is none.

What I know for sure, in this exact point in time, is that I can’t continue down this traditional path that I’m on. It’s better than where I was before I was laid off but it’s not going to satisfy me in the long run. There’s a reason why I always hated group work in school. I really don’t want someone else’s agenda to determine my sanity. I just care a lot about the things that I work on and it’s hard for me to not care and I find that most of the time I have to turn that part of me off in order to get through certain things.

I really, really love having complete control over what I put out into the world. I like having control over the things that people are going to judge me on, so that I can be proud to say that I made it, whatever “it” happens to be.

This is all al rambling mess, but I had to just say it. I haven’t written a journal entry, a personal one, in like forever. It’s been harder to say things.