I just found out that actor Heath Ledger has died, apparently of a drug overdose.

I am in complete shock and I am so sad. I just watched “Brokeback Mountain” for the second time over the weekend, with my mom, it was her first time seeing it. He did such a wonderful job in that role. He was such a talented actor. This is indeed a tragedy. And I think it hurts just a little bit more because he was from my generation.

Reminds me of the way I felt when I heard that River Phoenix was dead. All that talent gone to waste. I just wish people could face whatever their demons are and move through it, instead of letting it ruin their lives.

UPDATE: Okay, so it wasn’t drugs, thank god. It seems kinda creepie say that I’m glad that it wasn’t drugs, ’cause either way he’s still dead. But I’m glad that it’s looking like it wasn’t another “typical” Hollywood-related tragedy. So now this reminds me of when Nikki Taylor’s sister Krissie died from her asthma inhaler.

So I was reading over the Road Journals by Scottie on the John Mayer website. I became totally jealous of him and everybody who gets to be on tour with Mayer. Obviously part of it is because they get to hang out with John all the time, but the majority of it is because they’re having fun. Travelling around the country, and at times the world, just playing music for people. Although I do envy Scottie the most because he’s just John’s right hand guy (and I can’t play an instrument), bringing people to meet&greets, taking pictures. I want that job!

In other news.. I was late to work this morning because I got up late and because I was watching the Today show. They had the top ten NASCAR Nextel Cup drivers on to unveil the new Nextel Cup Cup (the trophy). Anyway, Junior was on and I had to sit and watch and drool. He’s such a cutie, but he had horrible body language. His arms were folded across his chest. Not good. Made it seem like he didn’t want to be there, and hell maybe he didn’t want to be there, but I dunno, I worry about his image and people’s impressions of him. Although the fact that he is freaking popular is annoying, ’cause ya know you’d always rather have your favorite all to yourself.

Just a quick question. I found the show Lizzie Maguire highly enjoyable, but who the hell told Hilary Duff that she could have a singing career? Lame.

I gotta clear up some stuff from my past entries. Ok, so when we went to Ago I saw no celebrities. Totally sucked. I’m celebrity repellant or something. We think it’s because we went to dinner early, around 7:30. So oh well. I’m determined to go back and see someone, anyone. I don’t care if it’s Carrot Top. I gotta see somebody. I really wanna go to the Ivy. That place always has someone.

I never rented a couch from RentaCenter, that place is so sleazy and gross. Don’t ever go there. yuck, patooey.

I just updated that “shallow, superficial” ad I made for Craigslist to find a job in LA. I tweaked it for the bay area. So hopefully I’ll get an email from some fabulous angel. Keep yur fingers crossed!

Soo… My sister officially rocks. My mom and I are going down to L.A. for the weekend, and on Saturday my sister is taking me to dinner ar Ago for my birthday. Ago is owned by Robert De Niro and celebs are always dining there. So I am suuuuper stoked about going there. My mom’s already been there twice I think, but this will be my first time and I hope that I get some good celeb sightings.

The only problem now is that I gotta figure out what I’m going to wear to dinner tomorrow night. I gotta dress up and all my dressy stuff is too big. So I’m going to have to do some super fast shopping right after work. ugh.

Okay, so I just called John Mayer. Eddie gave me his address and phone number. I’m freaking out. I just called the number and the guy answered and I was all “I’m sorry I have the wrong number” and the guy goes “oh its no problem”.. And I think it was him…. I don’t want to call him and be like “I’m in love with you” and I don’t wanna fuck with his privacy. So it’s really pointless to have that information. grrr. ‘Cause I’m sure he’d be like “well how’d you get this number?” and then he’d change it and I’d be lumped in with all those wacky fans who call him at home. Ech. But it’s still exciting. *sigh* I’d really rather just bump into him (literally) on the street somewhere. That’d be nice.

I’ve got a couple more dudes to add to the list of guys that are eligible to marry me… Jake Gyllenhaal. He’s single again! And Josh Hartnett… haha.. I keep seeing those previews for Wicker Park and I’m like “helllooooo!”

So it’s only two weeks till the party. I’m very excited about that. I still have no couch and I probably won’t get it until the end of Sept./beginning of October. Although I’m looking into renting a couch for the month, which would be great, but I gotta check it out. It’s looking like that might be possible. If it isn’t then I’ll just buy a bunch of floor pillows, bring down the folding chairs from my mom’s place. It’ll be cool… Ah! Just talked to Rent a Center and it is possible to rent a couch for a month. Perfecto.

So lets just go over, for the record, the guys that are (at this point in time) eligible to marry me (in no particular order):

1.) John Mayer (anytime, anyplace)
2.) Ben Affleck (his political stumping for kerry/edwards just solidifies the fact that he is so cool)
3.) Mark Mulder (pitcher for the Oakland A’s, tall and hoottt)
4.) Gary Gulman (from Last Comic Standing on NBC, tall and hooottt and funny)
5.) Dale Earnhardt Jr. (anytime, anyplace)
6.) Josh Duhamel (there should be a reality show called “win a date with Josh Duhmel”, huge ratings, huge!)
7.) Leonardo Di Caprio (yes, he’s with Gisele, but you never know what could happen)
8.) Vince Vaughn (super tall, super hot and super funny)

This list can be edited at anytime to add or delete men. I really posted that because I wanted to gush about what a hottie Mark Mulder is and how I think he is just totally gorgeous. Any of these guys I would just like to be in the same room as them. They don’t even have to talk to me, I just wanna see them in person. To see if they’re as fabulous in person as I think that they are on the tele.

So today I had my pre-op appointments. I’ve been pre-admitted, so I have two hospital bracelets on right now that I have to wear until Monday. I had an EKG done and more lab work (blood drawn). They also gave me a breathing thing that I have to use after the surgery to make sure my lungs are ok. Tomorrow is the last day that I can eat regular food, whatever I want basically. But I’m going to make it “light”. Then on Sunday I can only have clear stuff, like apple juice, water, broth, and Jello. Which is exactly what I’ll be able to eat after the surgery.

So now I’m happy that all these little appointments are done and now it’s just the surgery and everything after that I have to deal with. I know I’ll be nervous when I’m at the hospital and I have to hang out by myself in the pre-op room, that’ll suck. But they did say that they give you some medication before you even give you the anesthesia, and that kinda knocks you out so you don’t really remember anything after getting that stuff, until you wake up. Which totally works for me.

I’ve noticed that I use “so” a lot. Gotta stop that. I’ve come to find out that the funniest/most annoying thing to read while I’m on “vacation” will be my work email. I checked it today and got one email from Roxy Bitch this morning asking me to fax some of her contracts to our finance department. First off, She’s known for like ever that I would not be at work on Friday. In fact I even emailed her and everybody that needed to know that I would not be in at work today. Idiots. Then I got another email from my boss no less. She emailed me on Thursday asking for some spec ads that she thought that I had done (but had never asked me to do) for a prospective client. I emailed her back and said that I had never done spec ads for them. This was all at like 10am yesterday. So then she emails me back at like 6:45pm yesterday saying “can you make them?”. Idiots! I swear it’s like they’re taking crazy pills or something. I should write her back and be like, “yeah in two weeks”. Dorks. My opinion of my boss’ brain power is starting to downgrade and thats not a good thing. She’s starting to come down the ranks of Kimmie and Roxy, which is seriously sad.