My awesome sister on a new Lifetime tv show called “The Balancing Act.”

I’m putting together the greatest Mother’s Day present ever for my mom and I had to write something about it. Obviously I’m not going to say what it is because my mom does read my blog, but I will say this, it’s awesome. Everytime I think about it I get all teary-eyed.

It’s so good (and brilliant if I do say so myself) that I want to give it to her now! Grr. Oh well, Mother’s Day isn’t that far off (May 11th) so I think I can make it. I’ll post it photos of it here when it’s all said and done.

So emotional. That would be me. There are times when I can think of certain people and just start crying. If I was an actress no one would ever have to worry about if I’d be able to cry on cue or not. I don’t cry about just anything though. There’s always a valid reason. Sometimes it’s helpful to cry just get things out. I always feel better after it’s over.

But lately it’s been worse. It’s the damn holidays I guess. I went to Los Angeles with my mom to my sister’s house for Thanksgving. One of my nephews was playing the piano and I got all teary-eyed over that. I don’t know what it was; I guess I was just so proud of him. All my nephews are so cool, even in their young age.

At any rate, the holidays can be tough. I’ve learned that if you have family you have issues and there’s just no way around that.

What do you think of the new look? I dig it. I was kind of hesitant to put all my personal blog entries in a place where they can be easily found, but I was tired of trying to update three different places. So now if you want to know what’s going on with me (that doesn’t relate to my racing blog) you only have one place you need to look.

Soo… My sister officially rocks. My mom and I are going down to L.A. for the weekend, and on Saturday my sister is taking me to dinner ar Ago for my birthday. Ago is owned by Robert De Niro and celebs are always dining there. So I am suuuuper stoked about going there. My mom’s already been there twice I think, but this will be my first time and I hope that I get some good celeb sightings.

The only problem now is that I gotta figure out what I’m going to wear to dinner tomorrow night. I gotta dress up and all my dressy stuff is too big. So I’m going to have to do some super fast shopping right after work. ugh.

Okay, so I just called John Mayer. Eddie gave me his address and phone number. I’m freaking out. I just called the number and the guy answered and I was all “I’m sorry I have the wrong number” and the guy goes “oh its no problem”.. And I think it was him…. I don’t want to call him and be like “I’m in love with you” and I don’t wanna fuck with his privacy. So it’s really pointless to have that information. grrr. ‘Cause I’m sure he’d be like “well how’d you get this number?” and then he’d change it and I’d be lumped in with all those wacky fans who call him at home. Ech. But it’s still exciting. *sigh* I’d really rather just bump into him (literally) on the street somewhere. That’d be nice.

Yesterday morning on my way to work I asked for a sign that The Playground would happen, that I would be able to get out of this crap ass job that I have and finally be happy in my work life. Well, the first sign that I thought I got was my horoscope that said something about if you’re dedicated to it, you can make it happen. Then I read the email I got from my sister for my birthday (I couldn’t read it till yesterday ’cause I couldn’t access work email at home for some reason), and she said (amongst other things) that she was proud of me, etc. But I think the real sign was when my mom came over to show me her outfit that she’d worn yesterday. We went shopping and I picked out this pink skirt that she normally wouldn’t have chosen, and she ended up getting a ton of compliments all day at work & school for it. So anyway… she was telling me how she was talking to her trainer during her work out about my idea for The Playground. The trainer thinks it’s an insanely great idea and was like why not do it as a non-profit? And my mom was like yea, I should bring that up to her again. So she did and making The Playground a non-profit is not what I wanted to do ultimately but in the grand scheme of things this is the easiest, fastest, best way to make this thing happen.

By my mom bringing this up again it just made me realize that this was what I needed to do or else it’s going to take so long for me to get my fico scores up, get collateral, all the crap they scrutinize when you’re looking for business loans. And there are a lot of pros of going non-profit. The tax breaks, the discounts, the ability to get free money for the start up. Then I wouldn’t have to worry about paying people back, but just getting the place up and running and working properly. So now I have something to focus on, something to work on and keep my mind off of all this food stuff. Which as time goes on becomes less and less a huge issue in my head. It’s still hard, don’t get me wrong, but I’m not as emotional about it.

Tonight I have a hair appointment, which’ll be good and then I gotta go to Barnes & Noble to get a book on non-profits. I also need to start looking for foundations that give money to ideas like mine. Hopefully it won’t be a depressing process.