I am a Quirkyalone and I feel sooo incredibly validated right now, it’s not even funny. I feel awesome! Everything makes sense now!

quirkyalone (kwur.kee.uh.lohn) n. adj.
A person who enjoys being single (but is not opposed to being in a relationship) and generally prefers to be alone rather than date for the sake of being in a couple. With unique traits and an optimistic spirit; a sensibility that transcends relationship status. See also: romantic, idealist, independent

It was totally fate that I found this book. The book is called “quirkyalone: a manifesto for uncompromising romantics” That’s me! I’m off to go home and read this fabulous book before American Idol comes on. It’s going to be soo good.

yay!

I don’t understand how it is that I always become that girl to them. I don’t know how it happens. I’m so not that person. There’s more to me than that. Even though it’s all over I don’t understand why it’s over. I’ll never understand people, especially guys. What do I have to do in order to get one situation that can just last? Why does there always have to be twists and turns and finalities? Why couldn’t we have just stayed as we were and had fun with it, until whatever came along came along?

I think the cards were right, they said to be cautious, that someone wasn’t being entirely honest with me. But of course I’m not going to stop because I want to know what happens. I’m too curious to be cautious. I’ve learned this lesson too many times to count. I just want things to be cool and relaxed. So now I’ve got to find something else to fill this all in. (or at least I want to find something else, someone else) And it wasn’t like I was putting my entire hopes and dreams on all of this. It was just fun and now here I am trying to figure it all out when it wasn’t even that big a deal to begin with. I feel really weird about this, I learned all this information about someone and now I have to go through and erase all of it. I’m pissed that I’m even writing this all out. I just want to have said what I needed to say and be done with it all. I should of just never gone there and I’m more mad at myself than anyone because I let myself go this far. So whatever, this isn’t happening again.

It’s in the past, lets just leave it there.

It’s so crazy when you think you’re going to get one type of response and you end up with a completely different one. I suppose I already knew what would happen but I still thought that I would prove myself wrong. It’s sad when people live up to the low expectations that you’ve set for them. But at the same time it’s really great when you find other people who you never really knew very well who end up exceeding your expectations by leaps and bounds.