That would be me. My iron and potassium levels are at the bottom of normal. Because they don’t want them to go down from there they’d rather they be up so I have to make sure I eat more foods that have potassium and take an iron supplement. Oh for joy more supplements.

Is it just me or was the cover of the Beatles’ song “Across The Universe” that was done by all those peeps on The Grammy’s last night, crappy or what? I’d much rather listen to the Fiona Apple or Rufus Wainwright versions any day than hear Norah Jones, Alicia Keys, Steven Tyler and Scott Weiland (to name some of ‘em) do there worst of it.

That bit it, big time.

In other news.. I’m still trudging along the job search path. I had a good interview last week and I hope that they call me back for a second interview. If they don’t I guess that’s a big “oh well” and just move on. I’m really trying to enjoy my job that I have now so that I’ll find a job that I’ll enjoy even more. It’s hard. I’m constantly making postive statements about the job that I currently have, in my head to myself.

I don’t want to be considered a negative person, and I don’t want to hinder myself from doing things that I want to do because I’m being negative. Obviously I still want to be realistic, but I feel like for the most part I am but I’m also hopeful and optimistic about things in general.

I really want to plan a big show but I’m not sure where to do it. Maybe I should do it at PHill Comm. Ctr again but still try to make it big with sponsors and stuff. I dunno, but I need to do something ’cause I’m bored out of my mind.

I need to get my blood drawn tomorrow, so the results will be ready for my 6 month check up with my surgeon on friday. I hope all my levels are good, why can’t they make a chewable tablet that just has everything you need in it? I know I haven’t been taking my calcium thingys, I’m supposed to eat like 5 of ‘em in a day and so far I’ve averaged like one a week. They’re not the tastiest things in the world, but I don’t want my bones to break. ugh.

Well.. I went to the dentist (again) today and they made a mold of my teeth in order to make me a nightguard. My dentist also reccomended that I get braces into order to help with my jaw pain issues. I don’t wanna have braces! grrr. It’s not that big a deal I guess, I mean they have those “invisable” ones and what not. But its just this other thing that I need to do and I’m not really looking forward to it.

I have an interview tomorrow and on Friday, so I’m happy about that. They’re both at places that I would be interested in working at for various reasons that I’m not going to get into now. I’d rather not talk about specifics of the jobs until I get one. I’d just like to get one that I can stay in, if I have to, for a long time and be happy with it. This has got to be it. No more job hopping for me.

I can’t stand corporate crap. It’s all crap. It’s all just talk, talk, talk, talk, talk. There’s no action. I’m on this stupid conference call and I have no idea what they’re trying to do. We have a peer committee, which is just a group of employees, like one person from all of the big top 9 sites. So now they’re creating this joint committee, I guess along with the peer group.. and I’m trying to say that I don’t want to be on ANY committee anymore, but they’re trying to sign up people onto the joint committee’s new groups. Its like, why am I going to sign up for this crap if I don’t want to be on any of these damn committee’s. I asked this and then they tried to explain it to me and I don’t get it and I know it’s not because I’m stupid, it’s because they make no sense. Or maybe I wasn’t paying attention when they explained it, but whatever. I’m just not going to attend the meetings anymore. It’s pointless.

On a happier note, I’ve got a ton of sick and vacation hours, so that when I finally quit I’ll be cashing out and it’ll be grrrreat money to have!

I believe that I have TMJ and my jaw is all fucked up. There’s this pain there everyday and I can’t get rid of it it seems. Sometimes it’s less than others, but it’s always there. It has to do with stress, but the fact that I’m in pain makes it harder to relax ’cause I just want it to go away. Anyway, I’ve made another appointment with my dentist for next week, so hopefully that appointment will give me more tools to deal with this crap.

I had my 3-month check up with my surgeon this morning. I have lost a total of 61 pounds since the surgery in August. Yay… so I still need to lose 70 more to be at my goal weight.