I once liked this job, I think. I do remember actually waking up and being happy about coming to work. I’ve hit and passed the 6 month mark here so that’s probably why I’m feeling so restless, like I want to get the hell out of here. That plus my boss is a complete imbusile! I think the hardest thing is knowing that you should get out of something, knowing exactly what it is you’d rather be doing and not being able to do it.

It’d be nice to be able to get out of this place. I want to go to a park and sit and read a book or something. That is totally doable. I dunno… I don’t know how I feel.

Happy New Year

I think it’s safe to say that it has been a very long time since I last posted anything on here. I guess it’s because a lot has changed since I last wrote. I got laid off from Telese and now I work at a pineapple company. I know, very odd.

I’m still a sales assistant but that means something different where I am now. Its an ok place to work but there are still things that I would love to change. There are things that they do here that I just don’t understand at all. It all comes down to logic and common sense. I’m at odds with my boss. He’s a complete didiot. He doesn’t talk to me except to say good morning every morning, which is annoying because that’s all he ever says to me.

They don’t believe in meetings either. So it’s always well, this person said this and this person said that and for some insane and odd reason they don’t just say lets all get together and work on it. Goof balls. It’s so frustrating because its like I want to find another job because of it. It’s like I don’t feel like wasting my time trying to help people who don’t want to change and make their business better. Talk about frustrating… That’s just the beginning. There is so much more I could say but I won’t.

The show thing is going well. I’ve got three dates ahead of me. Ftight got signed! I’m very excited about it because they totally deserve it. They’re cool guys… I think they’re still in Mendicino right now writing for their first cd. Its on Columbia Records. I told Kirk that when they go on their “world tour” I’m so there. Which I will be ’cause that would just be too much fun… its the perfect excuse to finally get my butt in gear and go to Europe.

I’m still crusing around in the singles boat. But I have something now that I didn’t have before. I now know and believe that I am truly capable of getting a guy, a good guy. I’ve also aquired a huge, massive, monsterous crush on Ben Affleck. He’s my new future husband. How hot is he? He’s frigging gorgeous.. and smart. lets not forget that.

So… I still have the idea for the “teen center” but now I’m not calling it that at all anymore. I’m calling it a “live music venue” that will focus on the high school and college markets. I think this is the best way to go. It’ll be awesome… So I’m updating my business plan to reflect that. I still need an investor and that’s the hard part. UGH! If someone with $200,000 extra dollars lying around and they want to do something really cool with it, just send me an email or something… ’cause my plan is amazing and I’m not just saying that either. This has never been done before and it’ll revolutionize the entertainment industry.

I’m also single, so if you’re rich and a major hottie email me too!

So we had this big Sales/Service Dept. meeting. It was to go over customer complaints and issues and see how they could do things better, faster, easier. Ya know the drill. I like meetings like that because then you can see who’s smart and who’s a complete idiot. I already have my pick for the idiot award, but won’t say it in case someone happens upon this site. It was interesting. I kept thinking of all these things I could be doing to help them with some of them. I told my boss this and that I wanted to meet with her to discuss my job description. I hate the thought of asking for more work, for obvious reasons, but it’s ridiculous how little work I have to do. I have way to much free time and I am starting to feel guilty about it.

I talked to my boss about it and I told her my idea to help out with the service department. She thought it was good and she’s going to bring it up to the vp of operations. I hafta to make up a job description for myself and then she’s going to go over it and add stuff I guess. I just need more like daily responsibilities. I hate sitting and waiting for something to do. It’s dopey. It’s like can I just stay home and then when you need me go ahead and call me. I’ll be there in ten minutes.

As for my personal life… I went to La Scala last night and met Jonathan there, I believe I touched on this in my earlier post. I was weird last night. It was the first time I was hanging with him and I really just wanted to go home. I suppose it’s because the fantasy I had created died last night. With the advent of this Donatella chick (who I have now dubbed “Versace” in honor of her name sake) I feel like I have had the final tie cut. I also realized last night that if I were to continue to be into him I would just be settling. I mean yes we have so many things in common and we can communicate really well but overall he doesn’t measure up to the type of guy I really want.

Lets go over what I want for the record:
1.) Taller than me
2.) On the same maturity level as me
3.) Doesn’t live at home with his parents
4.) Owns his own car
5.) Has a goal and is working towards it, or has achieved said goal.
6.) Someone with similar interests, must like/love the following things: Movies, Music (A TOTAL must), Books
7.) someone who’ll say “bless you” when I sneeze
8.) has common sense
9.) someone I can take with me to my shows and other shows in general.
10.) someone who is totally supportive of my goals and dreams, and can understand how important they are to me.

Basically I want what everyone wants, but different. We’re all looking for the same things in general. I mean we all want someone who will care about us, and respect us and understand us. We all want the same, we just have different spins on how it should look and feel.

I realize that Jonathan isn’t that guy. I think I made a bigger deal out of him because he was so close and because I haven’t had male contact in like years! (not literally, but you get the point) So I think that’s enough for anyone to over-react and try to see something that isn’t there.

Have I ever talked about how much I love meetings?? they’re the best. Especially when they last forever. I get paid to sit and drink free coffee while other people talk about junk I have no clue about. It’s great…