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by Valli

So I went to the Christina Aguilera/Justin Timberlake show on Friday. It was totally hilarious. At least on the audience side of things. First off, all the girls, good bodies and bad bodies alike, were dressed to the nines. This was totally stupid for two reasons 1.) Justin was not going to look out into the audience and say “Hey, the girl in section 106, row 9, seat 6, you’re my true love! Please go out with me!” and 2.) The only guys that were in attendance were either gay or being drug along by their girlfriends. Christina was awesome. Her voice was great. Her dancers were awesome. I’d say the same thing about Justin. He did a lot more dancing but it was still a really good show. I’d even go again if given the chance. It was really fun to be able to see the show closer up. I was on the lower level and that was the best tickets I’d ever had at the Arena in Oakland. The guy Malik from The Real World New York 2 was there. He’s really cute. 🙂

I’m starting to feel sick and I really don’t want to be. My throat hurts. I really just wish it would go away and let the sickness come on. I hate this.

I saw the coolest thing on “real weddings by the knot” on Oxygen. This woman had a “wedding painter” come to her wedding and paint pictures of her guests and her and her husband. The woman used watercolors and they came out soo pretty! It’s really neat stuff. So when I marry my superstar husband we’re going to have a fabulous wedding with a “wedding painter”! 🙂 hehehe. I’m such a dork. Who knows what the future has in store for me, of course I hope it’s good things.

Right now, more than anything, I hope that I get another job. I’m sick of thinking about it and talking about it, but it’s soo fucking important. It’s what takes up the majority of my time during the week and I feel like that’s one thing that I have to get right, and if not right then at least better. I’ve definitely run my course with the pineapple people. But we all know this, so the next time I write something about this lame job that I have no it will only be to tell you about how I have finally been able to quit and when I will be starting my new job. dun dun duhhh.

NASCAR is coming here in two weeks to Sonoma, but the thing is the tickets are suuuuuuper expensive! We’re talking 80 to 125 dollars. It’s worth it, but I dunno. Seeing Dale Earnhardt Jr in person would be a complete trip. I’m really starting to wonder if there is a guy out there for me. I just wonder what he’s like, if he even exists. I see so many people that have found someone and I just want to know when I’m going to find my someone. A nice ballpark figure ya know… like a week, a day, a couple months, a couple years. Unlike a lot of people these days. I don’t want to be 40 and having my first kid. My mom was 29, 30 when she had me and she was usually one of the oldest parents when I was in school, which wasn’t bad or anything. But I just think that 30 is my cut off age. But of course you never know what circumstances could come up. Maybe I won’t meet my husband until I’m 35 or something. I dunno. I guess that’s the thing, you never get to know.