let me be the one

by Valli

There are many things that I’ve meaning to write about, and now I finally have some time to get ’em out. I really don’t have time, I should be working but I’d rather not. I just re-read my last blog post about the new company I’ve come to work for. Ahh, it’s interesting how things can change. It’s something that I’ve always known, but it doesn’t come up until things go wrong.

I was telling someone yesterday that the company I work for, there’s nothing wrong with it in general. People are nice, the company is ok, but ultimately it’s not what I want for my life. It doesn’t fulfill me and frankly I’m tired of bosses and I’m tired of office politics and muddled goals.

I’ve always wanted to have my own business, ever since I was a kid. I loved playing office or store by myself. I always hated “group work” in school. My sister knew from a young age that she wanted to be a lawyer and now she is one, even has her own practice. I, on the other hand, am still toiling in the mines for someone else.

And so it goes at most of the jobs I’ve had, after the initial happiness of landing a new job dissipates I’m left wondering what I’m really doing with my life. And this time, just like the others before, I come to the same conclusion. A whole lotta nothing. Well nothing that really inspires or excites me.

What I really want is to make a name for myself. I love writing, traveling and so many other little things that I won’t go into right now. Since I’m single with nothing really holding me back, except the usual credit debt, this is the time when I should take the chance on myself.

I have this idea that involves lots of traveling and writing. I’m hoping that I can really make it happen and have a very successful outcome.

So with that said, let’s think about love. There’s really nothing new to report. I’ve decided (and by decide I mean not do anything) that I’m not going to worry about finding a guy. It’s not the top-of-mind issue for me right now. Of course I have the same goals in that area, find someone, fall in love, get married and have babies. But I feel like it’ll happen when it happens and I ‘m not going to pick at it right now. Besides I’m tired of going after guys, it would be nice to be pursued for once (and not just for you know what).

Ok, now on to music. I’ve been meaning to talk about the CDs that I have recently acquired that I love.

First is Mat Kearney’s “Nothing Left To Lose,” his first single was the song of the same name. I love that song, but I was very surprised to find out that he does this kind of rap thing in his singing. It’s interesting. Luckily for him it works.

I bought The Police’s greatest hits CD which totally kicks ass. I didn’t realize how much I love “Don’t Stand So Close To Me” and “Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic.” I love the whole Lolita storyline in “Don’t…”

I got the new Tori Amos and Linkin Park CDs, both are good, but not so insanely good that I can’t stop listening to them.

I’ve bought CDs from Ari Hest, Shiny Toy Guns, Feist, Maroon 5, Justin Timberlake, and Josh Groban. All good stuff, but the biggest and best of them all is The Used latest CD “Lies for the Liars.” Don’t sleep on this CD it’s soo good.